I know I'm not the only one in this boat and its the dreaded two week wait again. It seems now that this the most stressful time of the month, although this month seems to be less stressful than usual as I've decided to take a more relaxed approach I still feel these two weeks are going to go very slow and I'm still thinking about babies and BFN/BFP every minute.Has anyone else managed to relax, spending time with o/h and daughter is what makes the time pass and I find relaxes me more but once I'm in work its on my mind as I have TOO much time to think. I end up wandering on to baby websites (like this one but this is supportive) but then I go onto maternity clothes/cots/buggies and it all starts again.I really do hope these two weeks go fast...PA  View less

Hmmm blogs, where do you start? I've never really been one for public displays of emotion not that I'm cold but that's not the way I was taught to be. My family's mantra is "Get on with it" and though I try to keep all my worries and thoughts bottled up so as not to worry or inconvieniance anyone else, I find that my fustrations seem to be getting the better of me. It was today in a rather unproductive afternoon at work that I decided I needed an outlet so here I am boring you all to death with my blog.So finally me and the OH have got to the stage where we are officially trying for a baby which obviously makes me very happy. However it's taken us the best part of a year to get to here. You see I fell pregnant for the first time when we'd been together only six months shock horror! but I'd never been particularly good at remembering to take my pill, I have a very forgetful nature. I remember being very shocked sat in the loo's at Bhs on my lunch break looking at that positive result. It felt like the bottom of my stomach had fallen out, I mean I knew I wanted children I'd always known that but this was just too soon. How do you tell someone you've been with for six months that your pregnant! Being the coward that I am by text! Immature? definatley but don't judge unless you've been in that situation. Shocked as I was I knew I would keep my baby, I knew I already loved it even if it was about to turn my life upside down. I love my OH but if he had made me choose he would have lost. I would have taken the route of the single mother, because I knew the little life growing inside me was all that mattered. Luckily after a long heart to heart with my OH we decided we loved each other enough to make it work and become a family. So I moved into his flat in sunny Leeds and we became a family. I got all the way to my 12 week scan without incident or so I thought it was lying there on the sonographers  table that my world fell apart, my body had failed me, I had failed my baby. It had died in the womb and there was nothing to be done no way to bring my titch back to me. They told me it was a missed miscarridge, told me I was young, I could try again. I didn't want to try again, I wanted the baby I had lost, I wanted it all to be a terrible nightmare that I would wake up from. But life carried on as it has a funny way of doing and the best advice I got came from "Little Nan" she told me that everybody would say the wrong thing, they would mean well but they would always get it wrong because unless they had experienced losing a child they could never understand. They best thing I could do was cry till there were no more tears and then pick up the pieces of my life and carry on, It;s a cliche but time really does heal a broken heart maybe not completely but I find my pain has lessened this last year. I have emerged from that dark place almost intact and whilst I will never forget my angel that was not meant to be I find that I am ready to try again.Of course this time my situation couldn't be more different, me and the OH are now engaged and have been together over two years. Our financial situation could be better but we have surrvived the recession better than most. Which leads me to pose the question when is the best time to have a baby? Would we be happier now we've been together longer, now we're more secure? Would our happiness have been any less had the circumstances been different and my baby had survived? Is there a perfect time to have a baby or is it all down to chance. I believe what happened to me and the OH should have weakend our relationship but it seems to have made it stronger having been together for so little time we should have crumbled but we didn't.I'm afraid I seem to have all the questions and none of the answers but I'm begining to think thats just the way the world works. So here I am at the brink of motherhood again and I have to admit I am very excited. I don't seem to be able to walk by mothercare without popping in to have a nosey, I am overly emotional for me and I am worried a little fearful. I mean how hard is it to get pregnant? I don't know I was never really trying the last time it just sort of happend. I am confused with period math and ovulation tests surely you just make love and create a little half me half him. But it seems like all other aspects of life things are just not that easy. As I read some of the heartbreaking tales of ladies who struggle to conceive for all your different reasons. I wish for all of you that your story's have a happy ending, and that your baby's find you. View less

We have been trying for a baby for about three months now and it's a little bit upsetting that it isn't happening yet. It's frustrating when girls get pregnant accidentally and they don't even want it and if they keep it spend most of their time moaning about it or neglecting the child. This is in no way offence to anyone who conceived accidentally just to those who dont even want it. Im sorry if it sounds offensive to anybody it's just upsetting. Has anyone else noticed that when your trying for a baby and it isn't happening you seem to see babies and pregnant women everywhere??? I was on the pill before me and sean started trying and i know it's supposed to take a bit for it to get out of your system but i didn't think it would take this long and what about all of them people who get pregnant whilst on the pill ?!?have just passed my ovulation period and although we are still gonna keep trying i'm just holding up now for the end of the month to see if i come on my period. Fingers crossed i dont and then it's just a pregnancy test away xx View less

Well, here we go.So the first big step is over - stopping contraception. For me this was not anything major as I had the implant and never really had the daily routine of taking the pill or remembering to get the injection as most women do. Surprisingly though I had my first period the very next day and after two years of freedom this turned out to be a bit of a shock. It seems an age since I had to buy a box of tampons and for some reason I still get that teenage feeling of embarrassment when the (male) cashier passes it over the scanner and I hear the deafening BEEP as the spotty youth tries desperately to avoid eye contact. The next step was timing my ovulation. I've not yet invested in any ovulation tests as I think this a complete waste of money unless we have been trying for at least six months. I am still relatively young (mid twenties) so there is no rush to fall pregnant, but hopefully the time will come by the end of this year. So I used the ovulation calculator on Gurgle to find my peak time. I found this somewhat reassuring as if the speedy calculation made by the computer was a prediction of how quickly I could conceive. There I was thinking I would definitely be up the duff within the next few weeks. So I've got my ovulation date, my folic acid in hand and a rather eager boyfriend, all set and ready to breed.Step three, sex This is the easy part, not really much to say here as I am sure nobody wants to know the ins and outs but lets just say we had fun experimenting with the different positions for optimum results. Rob is definitely in his element most mornings, Im not really a morning person but have now become accustomed to being woken with a nudge by what he calls his 'stoinker.' Mature, I know. Now obviously I know that a pregnancy test is not going to tell me I'm pregnant two days after I've stopped ovulating but I was mooching about the house at the weekend and curiosity got the better of me.TEST 1 - NEGATIVE. Quite right too, I'm not a fruit fly after all. I was not in the least bit disappointed at this as it is far too early, what I was disappointed at was the arrival of my period the next day, seventeen days between the two. Great, another trip to the shops ( I really should buy in bulk.) Shameful nod hello to the spotty cashier, who, by the way, appears to have had the same idea of buying in bulk and has spritzed himself in a bucket-load of Joop aftershave. Then back home to spend the evening with the bastard period pains. So here I am, at the beginning of what I hope to be a wonderful, stress free and life changing journey. All the best to the other ladies out there trying for their own little bundles of joy, feel free to add me as a friend as I know I'm definitely going to need lots of advice and support along the way. By the way, i've heard some ones got their hands on some 'baby dust?' Any of it going spare let me know. Thanks Janine.  View less